Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Insecure Writer's Support Group...
Wow. I've been a busy girl and am shocked. Shocked, I tell you, that I remembered to post for this month's IWSG.
I'm feeling loads of insecurities these days that are associated with writing. So it is a good thing I have this post to slough off those doubts that creep into my mind late at night and nibble at my subconscious.
Okay, maybe not doubts. Fears. That is a more apt description.
(Funny, reading over these first few sentences and I can see how deprived I am from writing. I'm using intelligent, descriptive words.)
So these fears of mine. I'm closing in on my book release month and I haven't even begun to get into the hard knocks revising of book two. Granted, I'm working a lot. But I have had other stresses in my life and I've been very selfish in the "Mel's Free Time" department. I'm either gaming on Everquest 2 (Yes, new game) or I am just chillin' in front of the T.V. I haven't even picked up a book or my e-reader.
But I had a very disturbing thought the other day. I've been trying to come up with some short stories or even some other ideas (which I do have a few of both...) but I just can't seem to get them down on paper.
Fear: What if I never have another good idea again?
Fear: What if I drop the ball and don't get book two done or I wait too long to get it out there?
Fear: What if I never have another moment to write, let alone blog?
Biggest fear: What if I'm successful? *Gasp!* And what if the other things I write fall short in comparison?
A week or so ago, I lost two followers. I come back to post this and I have gained three. I have ideas, I jot them down and try to work up some sort of opening scene in my head and come up with nothing. I feel like I am spreading myself too thin, trying to do far too many things without managing my time properly or in a useful manner.
Do you guys have these fears? How do you overcome them? Do I need to stop stressing and just let the writing flow rather than worry about it being pent up?
Have a great rest of the week everyone. I will try to get to your posts as well.