You know, I was hesitant to begin revisions on my second book.
Because I suck.
Not really, but that's how I feel sometimes. I feel like, 'Why, oh why, am I writing? I can't crank out several books a year like So-and-So over there. And I certainly don't have the skills of You-Know-Who."
No, not Voldemort. Silly.
Hmm... Maybe I should have saved this for an IWSG post. Oh well, too late!
I have been building my confidence in myself, though. Lately, as I have continued to work on my revisions, I feel a lot more confident. I can see a light at the end of this strange little tunnel.
When I wrote the very first story and sent it off to The-Company-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named (Publish America), I thought. "It's a good story! I'm going to sell lots of books!" Then things began to go wrong and the more things began to fall apart, the more I felt my story as a whole fall apart.
Lack of confidence in your work crushes your work and obliterates it into itty, bitty crumbs that go, POOF!
I couldn't figure out the next book. I couldn't figure out a way to end that first story, how in the hell was I going to figure out two more books??? I began to panic, then I thought, forget it, I can't do this. Not to myself and not to my story. I'm done.
My attitude has changed quite a bit since then. I'm growing more confident every day these days as well, knowing that I have a good story and the second book is shaping up to be just as good as the first, if not better. I can't wait for my first book to come out. I'm so excited!
What has me even more excited is working on book two and getting it into the hands of all my friends and anyone else who craves to read it. So what exactly has built this confidence? Just revising book two and watching things begin to take shape. What used to be a formless lump with not much to it, had something wonderful lurking beneath. The more I work at it, the more it begins to shine.
I can't wait for book three! And everything else that is going to come after. The more I write, the more confident I become.
How about you?