I'm Still Here...

 Hello all my lovely fellow authors and readers and followers! I know, I've been stuck in limbo yet again, trying to get back into the old routine.

Much more difficult than I anticipated, especially with work. It's an issue, but I'm working on correcting things. Scheduling will become my friend again.

At the moment, I haven't really been writing much, or revising. I do have an editor lined up for book two and I'm excited, but I'm dealing with the whole, "Am I really good enough to be doing this?"

I'm confessing, here. I've read some pretty bad reviews of my book and I thought I had a thicker skin, but they affected me. Granted, the one review I saw that was pretty bad, the person put a link to THEIR book at the end of it all. So, I sort of blew that one off. That just made me upset, and I don't want to take their comments seriously.

But I have to stop writing for other people. This is my story and yes, "Adversarius" was my first book. It's a rewrite of something else that came out much better than the first one. So I do keep improving. And I am aware of my improvements. This current story, with "Adversarius", is my introduction into my world. It's my way of bringing people in and showing them what my characters are up against.

Yes, the plot is not the best. Yes, I have a LOT of characters to deal with. (Which I am learning to manage better.) Yes, I use typical Fantasy elements and names. I know a lot of people don't like the "hard to pronounce" names or using an apostrophe in the middle of a word to make it look like "Fantasy". Honestly, this is stuff I enjoyed reading. I'm a tabletop gamer girl gone cyber gamer. I grew up on typical fantasy and hard to pronounce names.

Yeah, I'm defending my work. I really shouldn't be, but I suppose this is a way for me to come clean with myself, and you, about why I'm slacking again. The wind is passing right through the tears of my sails. I also swear I have adult ADD. I try to finish all of my projects. Writing is one thing I just can't seem to stop doing. So even though I have been silent on the internet for awhile, it doesn't mean I've halted everything. Trying to juggle lots of projects with work and family. Something tends to give, in that respect. Sadly, it's been my writing. 

I am going to get back to it. In fact, I've signed up for a 5 week online writing course. I want to better myself as a writer. I know I will still get bad reviews, but I need to create a thicker skin, to let those reviews roll off my back. I enjoy writing, tremendously, and it is something I will fight to continue.

Thanks to all of you who stick around and still read my blog. I need to get on here more, because that does help me get into a routine and work on my writing skills. Feel free to give me a kick in the backside!